There's a sort of relief too...at finally putting all of it to an end. But this sinking feeling, this sense of loss just won't go. Why couldn't it all be simple to understand, easy to sort out? i wish i could be like those who can look at everything in a detached sort of way..no pain, no complications.
There's this crazy need, this impulse, this wish to be with someone...someone who would help put all this at rest.
Human emotions...and human love for everything complex. Or more like...human love for making everything complex. heh