It's a strange strange feeling... when you suddenly start feeling not only your own emotions, but someone else's as well. When what they think, feel, want, like, don't like is felt as acutely as if it was you going through all those emotions. When every slight that comes their way, when every harsh word that is said to them and pains them, makes you cry out in pain as well. When you are anxious about them, when you can feel their unsettled thoughts, feel the restlessness even when you are not with them. When the shouts hidden behind their silences deafen you.
It's a strange feeling, to feel all this and more. To feel for 2 people. I thought i had experienced it before, been through this before. But i apparently haven't. Because if i had, it would not be surprising me the way it IS surprising me right now. It would not have been this difficult for me to understand as to what's going on.
I don't even know for sure whether all of this is a figment of my imagination, or whether it's actually felt this way.
All i know is, i feel that someone i would give my right hand for, is terribly hurt. Probably his pain is subsiding, but mine isn't, and won't, till i have in some way seen his subside.
I wish the process of catharsis was begin soon, i wish he would be able to heal soon. I wish whatever it is, is not strong enough to spoil an age old relationship. I hope that, with all the anger and the pent up emotions that are so easily misleading everyone, sense does prevail, and stops them from undoing everything based on fickle premises.
I wish the silent would speak and help the ones around them understand as to what pains them. I wish the ones who ARE talking, would pay some heed to the one they have injured. I wish the ones who are injured would turn back and notice whether the ones who they perceive as the reason for their pain, isn't bleeding himself.
SIGH. IF ONLY I HAD WISHED FOR WORLD PEACE. That would have been so much easier to understand.
It's a strange feeling, to feel all this and more. To feel for 2 people. I thought i had experienced it before, been through this before. But i apparently haven't. Because if i had, it would not be surprising me the way it IS surprising me right now. It would not have been this difficult for me to understand as to what's going on.
I don't even know for sure whether all of this is a figment of my imagination, or whether it's actually felt this way.
All i know is, i feel that someone i would give my right hand for, is terribly hurt. Probably his pain is subsiding, but mine isn't, and won't, till i have in some way seen his subside.
I wish the process of catharsis was begin soon, i wish he would be able to heal soon. I wish whatever it is, is not strong enough to spoil an age old relationship. I hope that, with all the anger and the pent up emotions that are so easily misleading everyone, sense does prevail, and stops them from undoing everything based on fickle premises.
I wish the silent would speak and help the ones around them understand as to what pains them. I wish the ones who ARE talking, would pay some heed to the one they have injured. I wish the ones who are injured would turn back and notice whether the ones who they perceive as the reason for their pain, isn't bleeding himself.
SIGH. IF ONLY I HAD WISHED FOR WORLD PEACE. That would have been so much easier to understand.
