Turning unfaithful..

To all of you who have been visiting my blog over all these years.. thank you. thank you for making me feel that there was something that i have been doing for more than a decade now (!!) that did have some meaning. Believe it or not, the thought that i have been read by so many of you, that there are people who though might not have been following me, have still looked up my blog and read what i wrote, gave me so much confidence, words can't express it.

However, i feel that after all these years, i am finally ready for something new. So i am shifting my blog to wordpress.com. It's still not my own domain yet, i know, but someday soon i promise. Till then, please DO keep reading my thoughts, becoming a part of my world, and show some love on the new blog! My new blog's name is Random Thoughts (big surprise, that lol!), and the URL is https://kritzmat.wordpress.com/ .

Please continue to visit the new page, and do share your thoughts, your opinions with me through your comments. Continue to share with me what resonates with you, what you like, or even what you don't.

So long, Blogspot! Thank you for having given me this beautiful outlet for my thoughts and feelings. You will always be my first :)

IF I COULD (By Maurice Yvonne)

if i could, 

 i'd wish a magic wand.

 if i could,

 i would build dreams

 brick by brick 

 the kind

 one could hang on to

 one could live in.

 if i could, 

 imagine

 upside down 

 rainbows 

 so the sky 

 baby blue

 would look as if

 it was smiling. 

 my bestest hope

 wipe away the tears from

 the hungry 

 the abused 

the sickly children

 and elderly. 

 this first, 

fore all else,

 yes the children and the elderly. 

if i could, 

 replace every tear with a smile 

 a hug

 a tickle 

if i could, 

snap my fingers make money obsolete,  

plenty for everybody to share.

clap my hands medical care everywhere would be there.

in my heart, live dried out tears.

there, i hear the pulse of our planet. 

so many good people, 

people who care.

there's a black venom 

such a small dose 

affects the masses. 

if i could,

supply all with the antidote.

if i could, 

i would build an arc 

sail 'till the world was cleansed 

move in with everyone 

on one land. 

call it OURS. 

yes definitely OURS. 

i like that name. 

i can't. 

i can't do all those things. 

i can kiss where it hurts. 

 give hugs freely. 

 give what possessions, 

 i can do without, 

 share my physical wealth. 

i fear nothing. 

 least of all poverty 

 happy to share what i can. 

i can offer you my love 

love comes easy to me. 

it never feels like enough. 

but i am here, arms wide open. 

tell me what is it you need, how can i help. 

i love you, unconditionally.

[I came across this poem on this website called Poetry Soup. It was so raw, so beautiful i couldn't help but re post it here. Whoever you are Yvonne, know that your words resonate with me, and affect me like things haven't in a long long while. You are one beautiful soul, whoever you are.

The original link where i found this poem is: https://www.poetrysoup.com/poem/if_i_could_625737 ]

Murphy Returns

Worst mood possible! Hot sticky evening, and I'm in an auto on my way back home from work. After having waited on the road for 30 mins to get a conveyance of ANY form. The auto guy just had to get gas refilled today. The weather is sticky and humid and I'm sweating buckets, sticky all over. As the auto moves, the breeze slightly blows. But then, we get stick at the signal once again. And the auto driver is sweating dollops as well, and stinking of mouldy stuff.  Yeurgh!! God knows how my judgemental ass is smelling to others though! And now I have to go to one of those highbrow South Delhi malls, all messed up. Oh man! I want to vent off on someone /something!!

Of all the days, why did I choose this opportune day to travel by auto you ask? Well, because as today happens to be my lucky day, my phone internet stopped working because of which  I couldn't book a pool ride.

Two people who give up on their own comfort and pleasures, just to ensure that you have everything you want for. That you are protected and sheltered. They might not indulge you and your whims on the face of it, or encourage you to buy those big brands, but when you need that money for a reason, it WILL be there, without even a second thought, and only God knows from where! They are like your emergency credit card. For themselves, they will think, and think thrice, before they buy anything. But for you, they always want to make sure that you have what you want, even if they do try and exercise a little bit of rationality while looking at the tags. Oh yeah, they will negotiate even the smallest rise in your pocket money/allowance. But i believe that's just a ploy to help you become a better negotiator haha! Oops.. just realized i haven't specifically mentioned i am talking about parents. Then again, who could have assumed otherwise, reading what i have written thus far, heh.

But what happens when you grow up and aren't really dependent upon them for all your whims and fancies? Oh sure, you talk about independence and our rights and their duties and individual choice. But how do you REALLY strike a balance with all these things, and a genuine feeling that you are what you are because of them and their small sacrifices over these many years? Do you continue to be okay with how they still treat you like the young one, looking out for you, trying to advise you about things, telling you what's best for you and what isn't good for you at all, protecting you and sheltering you? Or do you simply shout and fight, trying to exercise the good ol' "my life, my choice!" right? How do you ensure that you become an independent, open minded, confident individual who doesn't depend on them for his or her needs, without becoming a stranger to them and breaking their heart?

I am 27 and still struggling to figure THAT one out! It would be nice to know what others think as well! ;)