THIS IS WHY I LOWVE MY PEOPLE - 4

K- E, you have no idea... yada yada yada... yada yada yada..


E- Dude. you ARE yellow bus special! WHY would you even THINK about something so useless when there's something special in store? i mean SERIOUSLY?
and... YOU HAVE NO IDEA. all this shit in your life is better than being bitten by a dog. trust me... (she recently got bitten by a dog, and got about 3 anti rabies injections in one go).
Kritika, you're the normal one here, believe me. your biggest problem is, you are surrounded by way too many abnormal ones.


hahahahahahaha! hahahahaha! i lowve you. :)

sometimes, it's when you are able to laugh at your problems, and look at the ridiculous side of them, you suddenly realize how lame you have been acting.
sometimes, it takes a friend ridiculing the whole situation and the people involved that helps you realize that the problem isn't as serious as you thought it was. it's when THEY laugh at it, help you look at the stupidity and immaturity of it all, when you realize how bizarre all of it is. helps you let go, like nothing else does. helps you feel whole again, realize that it's NOT you, not your fault.
small petty things, insignificant people... why in the world should they or anything else matter, even for a minute? who gives a flying fuck about them anyway?! you gotta keep things in perspective. sift and sort, sift and sort. when there are ten things going for you and one thing going against you, just forget the damned thing, and concentrate your energies where it matters, where they count.

sigh. and all it took, was a pack of cloves, hot coffee, a brilliant nippy evening, cold wind in my face, and some good company. cathartic, all of it.

PS- i am surrounded by some really amazing people. and it's at times like these that i realize this fact. :)

funny how relationships become overlapping, how your relationship with someone is affected to such a marked extent by someone else's equation with them. how they themselves realize it to a degree, and know how it might be thus affected... and how, correspondingly, their behaviour towards you changes or varies.

also, funnier still is how you sooner than later realize where you stand in their lives, how, no matter what you do, and no matter how they might be disgusted with someone or something that they complain to you about, they might still be more important.

funniest of them all? how the smallest of things can make you wonder if you ever really truly did mean anything at all..

ah well.. such is life, isn't it? you give some, you lose some. then again, you also learn some.. :)

"Jacob, the world's run on tricks. EVERYONE PLAYS. but it's having a true talent, a gift born within, something no degree can give you.... (a toast) To TALENT AND DELUSION!"

The Way I Feel

I feel like I’m floating through existence
I feel like I’m living after time
I feel like I’m forced to break the silence
Is that a crime? Is that a crime?
I feel like we’re all following shadows
And shadows they don’t know where to go
I feel like I’m waiting for tomorrow
While today wastes away

It’s not that I don’t know
It’s not that I can’t see
It’s not that I haven’t noticed
It’s driving me insane
It’s not that I don’t know
It’s not that I can’t see
It’s just the way I feel
It’s just the way I feel

I feel like a child without a father
And mama tries oh lord knows mama tries
I feel like the world is on my shoulder
I wonder why, wonder why
I feel like I’m not the only one who’s frustrated
I feel like something’s going wrong
I can’t escape it
I feel like the destinies of those meant
To be the best
Are in the hands of liars now the world is on fire

I feel like we’re not angry enough
That while we wait, time’s ticking away
I feel there’s gonna be an explosion!

It’s not that I don’t know
It’s not that I can’t see
It’s not that I haven’t noticed
It’s driving me insane
It’s not that I don’t know
It’s not that I can’t see
It’s just the way I feel
It’s just the way I feel

this one is for someone who took away my moroseness today. THANK YOU! the surprise was really sweet, and well, so were the chocolates :)

you did pass on the happiness as you promised, and it stayed. just so you know, i am completely out of that phase now. and the two reasons for that happen to be the upcoming outstation audit, and your surprise.

PS- to kill the suspense, THIS POST was for you. too bad you didn't guess it. lol. took away half the fun. :)

BRING ME TO LIFE

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home


Wake me up
Wake me up inside
I can't wake up
Wake me up inside
Save me
Call my name and save me from the dark


Wake me up
Bid my blood to run
I can't wake up
Before I come undone
Save me
Save me from the nothing I've become


Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life


Wake me up
Bid my blood to run
I can't wake up
Before I come undone
Save me
Save me from the nothing I've become

I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life


Without thought, without voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life


I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
 Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under
 

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under

YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND THE HERO

i have to stop looking for my story elsewhere.. i need to stop looking for it in the books i read, the movies i watch, the people i observe, the music that i listen to and the words that i hear.

they were not written about me, not made about me. the beautiful images that they spin, the pathos that accompany them, the pain, the tragedy, the joy and the satisfaction.. they are not mine.

the script of my life has NOT been written yet. it is still a work in progress. and it can NOT progress unless and until i work on it.

"...the individual writes and performs the script for his
or her own life. Neither chance nor a divine being writes the script for us.
We write it, and we are the actors who play it.
You are the author and the hero. To perform your play well, it is important to
pound the script into your head so thoroughly that you can see it vividly before
your eyes."


dreams are beautiful even when they are tragic. but at the end of the day, they ARE but dreams. they end soon as your eyes open. they leave you disoriented, if you forget to make a distinction between what's but a mirage, and what's the reality.
dream, believe, feel, imagine. let your imagination soar. test your boundaries with the power of your imagination.
then get off your ass and make it happen. it's YOUR life. YOU got to live it the way you see it, not simply see it happen to someone else and then look for satisfaction or sadistic pleasure in what enfolds in their's.

"the reason i keep bringing it up is because i don't ever want you to be disillusioned. i was a believer once too, but reality sunk in soon enough. but i don't want the same to happen with you. i don't want you to stop believing."
don't you worry... i won't be.

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

CHORUS
Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

CHORUS
I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land
But I'm still an embryo
With a long long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman
Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong

FADE
I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman

..On my wall the colours of the maps are running
From Africa the winds they talk of changes coming
The torches flare up in the night
The hand that sets the farms alight
Has spread the word to those who're waiting on the border

In the village where I grew up
Nothing seems the same
Still you never see the change from day to day
And no one notices the customs slip away

Late last night the rain was knocking at my window
I moved across the darkened room and in the lampglow
I thought I saw down in the street
The spirit of the century
Telling us that we're all standing on the border

In the islands where I grew up
Nothing seems the same
It's just the patterns that remain
An empty shell
But there's a strangeness in the air you feel too well..

LET'S UNCOMPLICATE, SHALL WE?

..On my wall the colours of the maps are running
From Africa the winds they talk of changes coming
The torches flare up in the night
The hand that sets the farms alight
Has spread the word to those who're waiting on the border

In the village where I grew up
Nothing seems the same
Still you never see the change from day to day
And no one notices the customs slip away

Late last night the rain was knocking at my window
I moved across the darkened room and in the lampglow
I thought I saw down in the street
The spirit of the century
Telling us that we're all standing on the border

In the islands where I grew up
Nothing seems the same
It's just the patterns that remain
An empty shell
But there's a strangeness in the air you feel too well..

I feel free, like i have somehow finally broken free of the shackles that had tied me down.
And no, it's not the exam related stress that i am refering to here. It's so much more.
Exam stress had simply brought it all to the fore, making me feel everything so much more minutely and strongly.
But something has changed, something within me, and changed for the better i believe.
It was something that Dev said, which for once made absolute sense.
I won't say here what it was, but suffice to say, it was one his rare (very rare, heh) gems.
We have quite a few of those discussions, but nothing he has said in all these years has made as much
sense as that one sentence yesterday.
And you know what, when you think about it, you realize that you unnecessarily complicate things.
You think about something so much, you add so many dimensions to one simple thing, that it becomes this
monstrous problem, which makes you think about everything, analyze everything, evaluate everything.
Why do that? Why at all? When you did something, said something, felt something, you did it because it felt right.
Then why spoil it all, now, by analyzing the reasoning of your decision at that time?
And, when you know that something is bothering you, why make it worse by trying
to figure it out more? Why not let it be, ignore it and distance yourself from it?
It's such a simple thing to do, and dare i say, something i am much experienced in.
Problems become so big and all encompassing because we make them so, because we let them matter so.

You always, ALWAYS have an option. Depends on what option YOU decide to go along with.
If you decide to let something bother you, you lose the right to complain.
And it's absolutely lame on your part to blame anyone else for making you miserable.
The only time you can miserable is when you choose to be so.
And i for one, am tired of it. I am a happy person! Always have been! Why change that?
I have never before let anything become so big a bother in my head, so why now?
Everything is so amazing when you choose to let it be so. For every one bad deal you are dealt, there are about five good ones to compensate for it.

Life is like a SWOT analysis if you think about it... you've got your Strengths, Weaknesses, the Opportunities and Threats.
Maximize your strengths and make full use of the opportunities.
Minimize the impact of your weaknesses, blunt them, to defend against the threats..
It's that simple really! :)

HOW COULD I HAVE NOT POSTED THIS?!

THIS... this, is one of my oldest favorites. A brilliant BRILLIANT song by Ustad Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan. The lyrics, the music... everything. Unlikely as it is, it always has me up on my feet, dancing and throwing myself around. The energy, the spirit of the song.. it's contagious! LOWVE EET!


PIYA RE...
.

JO MAIN NAINA KARUN BAND BAND..

i know i know... it's pretty old. but it's still beautiful, and one of my all time favorites... :)

Rooh ka banjara re parinda
Chhad gaya dil ka re gharonda
Chhad gaya dil ka re gharonda todke
Re gharonda todke, gaya chhodke

Je naina karun band band
Beh jaye boond boond (2)
Tadpaye re, kyun sunaye geet malhar de

Bemalang tera iktara (8)

Itra tun basi basi, padi hai sirhane
Band darwaja dekhe lauti hai subah
Thandi hai angeethi seeli, seeli hain deewarein
Goonje takrake inme dil ki sada
Goonje hai re (2) dil ki sada

Jo naina karun band band
Beh jaye boond boond
Tadpaye re, kyun sunaye geet malhar de

Bemalang tera iktara (8)

I'M HUMMING...

GYM CLASS HEROES

[Adam Levine]
My heart's a stereo

It beats for you, so listen close

Hear my thoughts in every no-o-ote

Make me your radio

And turn me up when you feel low

This melody was meant for you

To sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf

Would you blow me off and play me like everybody else

If I asked you to scratch my back, could you manage that

(unintelligible, but NOT "... read well, check it") Travie, I can handle that

Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks

It's just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks

I used to used to used to used to, now I'm over that

Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts
If I could only find a note to make you understand

I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hands

To keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune

And know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo

It beats for you, so listen close

Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio

And turn me up when you feel low

This melody was meant for you

To sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was an old-school, fifty pound boombox

Would you hold me on your shoulder, wherever you walk

Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops

And crank it higher every time they told you to stop

And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me

When you have to purchase mad D batteries

Appreciate every mixtape your friends make

You never know, we come and go like on the interstate
I think finally found a note to make you understand

If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand

T' keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune

And know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereoIt beats for you, so listen close

Hear my thoughts in every no-o-ote
Make me your radio

Turn me up when you feel low

This melody was meant for you

To sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh, to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, to sing along to my stereo

[Bridge]
I only pray you'll never leave me behind (never leave me)

Because good music can be so hard to find (so hard to find)

I'll take your head and hold it closer to mine

Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereoIt beats for you, so listen close

Hear my thoughts in every no-o-ote
Make me your radio'N turn me up when you feel low

This melody was meant for you

To sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh, to sing along to my stereo

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO CALL THIS...

running and running... running so hard. yet, stopping right in the middle, waiting for you to catch up with me, before i start the race again... no one around, nothing else around. a gripping dread. but also an assurance somewhere deep inside. both equally justified.

sometimes it's an ocean, sometimes it's a dead road. but always the night. always me, alone. me alone, running. alone, yet not quite.
abstract, so abstract. i cant see my own face, i cant see your face.
i don't know if you are good, i don't know if you are bad. yet i am running from you. irrationally.
only because i don't know you. only because i don't understand you. only because i can't see you.
all i know is, you are there somewhere, right behind me, running after me.

what is it? why is it? years and years... yet the same dream. a dream? or a nightmare?
 i don't even know.
feels like a nightmare sometimes. but then again, if thats what it really was,
why would i stop in my tracks, waiting for you to catch up?

and all it ends with, ever, is a cold sweat. and me sitting up in the bed, trying not be scared of the shadows, trying to convince myself that there is nobody there apart from me and mona... nobody is standing next to me, the presence i feel and fear, even in these known surroundings, is an unjustified irrational fear.

all i do, is wake mona up, hold her hand, and close my eyes, holding onto it, hoping i will fall asleep soon enough...

LET IT BE...

the power of lyrics... the play of words... whether the color for the moment is blue, black, red, grey, green, white or yellow... there is always a bit of verse for everything..

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

LOOK WHAT I FOUND! :)

The latest song we have up on the Top Tunez site... it's a wonderful cheerful melody that will have you nodding your head and tapping your feet with the music!

Check it out!

HEY JULIE
Working all day for a mean little man
With a clip-on tie and a rub-on tan
He's got me running 'round the office like a dog around a track
But when I get home,
You're always there to rub my back


Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through without you around

Hours on the phone making pointless calls
I got a desk full of papers that means nothing at all
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face


Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

[Bridge]
How did it come to be
That you and I must be
Far away from each other every day?
Why must I spend my time
Filling up my mind
With facts and figures that never add up anyway?
They never add up anyway

Working all day for a mean little guy
With a bad toupee and a soup-stained tie
He's got me running 'round the office
Like a gerbil on a wheel
He can tell me what to do
But he can't tell me what to feel


Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through without you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

The Human Side

"Our time is distinguished by wonderful achievements in the fields of scientific understanding and the technical application of those insights. Who would not be cheered by this? But let us not forget that human knowledge and skills alone cannot lead humanity to a happy and dignified life. Humanity has every reason to place the proclaimers of high moral standards and values above the discoverers of objective truth. What humanity owes to personalities like Buddha, Moses, and Jesus ranks for me higher than all the achievements of the enquiring and constructive mind.
What these blessed men have given us we must guard and try to keep alive with all our strength if humanity is not to lose its dignity, the security of its existence, and its joy in living."

EK WOH DIN BHI THE...

कुछ लोग पीछे छूट जाते हैं
यादें वोह अपनी छोड़ जाते हैं
उन्ही यादों के बारे में सोचो
तो कुछ पुराने किस्से याद आ जाते हैं
उन पुराने किस्सों की थी अपनी कहानी
जो हमने लिखी थी अपनी ज़ुबानी
उन दिनों की बात कुछ और थी
जब ज़िन्दगी न सिर्फ एक दौड़ थी|


अपने से लोग, अपने से चेहरे
वोह सीधे से सुलझे से सपने
जब किसी मुखोटे  पर न शक था
जब एक हसीं और आंसूं के बीच
सिर्फ एक मिनट का फरक था | 


माना यह सब पुरानी बातें हैं
मगर कभी कभी ये याद आ जाती हैं
जब तुम अपने बारे में सोचते हो
जब तुम उन लोगों के बारे में सोचते हो
जो कभी तुम्हारे साथ हर पल थे
लेकिन आज कोई इधर कोई उधर है
उन चेहरों की कहानी है तो पुरानी
मगर लगती है अकेले पल में सुहानी|


वोह अपने से लोग, अपने से चेहरे
जो अब हो गए हैं थोड़े धुंधले |

..And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
Cos all the walls of dreaming, they were torn right open
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken

And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open
And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open

Snow White's stitching up the circuitboards
Synapse slipping through the hidden door
Snow White's stitching up the circuitboard

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world..

LIFE'S A DREAM

Miles till dawn
But it feels so dark till then
Drowns you out
But you can't be too certain

Common wants
Only fill me up with need
Everybody
In this world is just like me

So I row on

Sounds like fear
Thinking there might be a cure
Waste your life
But you don't know what it's worth

Comb your mind
For all the treasures of this earth
Too close to find
Anything outside yourself

So why row on
Life ain't nothing
But a dream
Realistic
As it seems

Destiny's vulgar
So I might as well resist
Out of the darkness
And all the secrets still exist

Finally decided
And by decide I mean accept
I don't need all those
Other chances I won't get

ANOTHER CHAPTER COMES TO AN END..

Something inside her died that night,
When the blinds were removed from her eyes;
All alibis have run their course,
She was, but a temporary recourse.

Another chapter comes to an end,
Broken pieces to pick and mend;
Walls of dreaming, once again shattered,
But then, to who but  her does it matter.

Another dawn, another morrow,
A chance new to forget the sorrow;
No longer shall the dreamers tarry,
As life beckons, they shall board the ferry.