came face to face with a ghost tonight, a phantom that has haunted me for a while now.
it was like, seeing your nightmare right there, infront of you.
OR...
that's what i thought till i realized that,
it was nothing more than a mirage that i had somehow conjured, that went BUST!
it was something i had built up in my head for a long while.
something i had thought was too hard to deal with for me.
but then when i came across it, it was nothing.
the anticipation didn't live upto the actual performance.
it was nothing... it did nothing to me, no emotions whatsoever.
and it made me realize... i have moved on. much further than i ever thought.
things that once hit me hard, once affected me, don't really matter anymore.
people who mattered, they have become a part of the past.
it's like a memory, all of it..
a memory that i am trying to avoid as of now, because i don't want to deal with it.
but a memory nonetheless, which i HAVE relegated to the past.
yes i have, lock stock and barrel.
when i cared, it was with everything i had.
but the moment the tie was broken, everything fizzled out with that.
there is no baggage, no luggage, no cargo.
and it feels wonderful... it feels like i can breathe again.
i feel like i can rise up and stretch my hand once again,
that if i jump, i could probably touch the sun!
for anyone who doubted me when i did make the decision,
yes, i can handle it. yes, i have handled it. and yes, i bloody well can.
because i know what i am looking for, and i know how to reach out to it now.. :)
PS- NOBODY disrespects my mum dad and leaves unscathed. not even phantoms. they better remember this the next time.
it was like, seeing your nightmare right there, infront of you.
OR...
that's what i thought till i realized that,
it was nothing more than a mirage that i had somehow conjured, that went BUST!
it was something i had built up in my head for a long while.
something i had thought was too hard to deal with for me.
but then when i came across it, it was nothing.
the anticipation didn't live upto the actual performance.
it was nothing... it did nothing to me, no emotions whatsoever.
and it made me realize... i have moved on. much further than i ever thought.
things that once hit me hard, once affected me, don't really matter anymore.
people who mattered, they have become a part of the past.
it's like a memory, all of it..
a memory that i am trying to avoid as of now, because i don't want to deal with it.
but a memory nonetheless, which i HAVE relegated to the past.
yes i have, lock stock and barrel.
when i cared, it was with everything i had.
but the moment the tie was broken, everything fizzled out with that.
there is no baggage, no luggage, no cargo.
and it feels wonderful... it feels like i can breathe again.
i feel like i can rise up and stretch my hand once again,
that if i jump, i could probably touch the sun!
for anyone who doubted me when i did make the decision,
yes, i can handle it. yes, i have handled it. and yes, i bloody well can.
because i know what i am looking for, and i know how to reach out to it now.. :)
PS- NOBODY disrespects my mum dad and leaves unscathed. not even phantoms. they better remember this the next time.
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