life. happens...

realized something a coupla hours back. it doesn't matter anymore. and it's stupid to hold onto it. the anger, the sense of being let down...done away with. complete and utter indifference is the only way to describe it. more or less like a stranger on the street. the sudden appearance or disappearance is hardly to have any impact. ofcourse going back to how it was is impossible.. something basic, very close to trust and belief in the bond, is dead. that old friendship and bond is gone forever. but a stranger's courtesy can be allowed, nay?

there's a feeling of complete and utter calm that surrounds pretty much everything. all the agitation and restlessness of the mind... what's the purpose of it? does it assuage the emptiness? fill in the gaping holes? bring about drastic changes? no... simply makes them more prominent.

and what's the use of any of it anyway? at the end of the day it's all about the cards that are dealt, and how they are played.

so, is this the anti social phase that's setting in again? not quite.. it's just reality and life leaving an indelible mark on an idealist. reshaping certain ideas and beliefs that were once gospel truth.

but then again...that's life, hey? life happens. learn, live. live, learn. and that's how it goes...