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Wednesday, August 17, 2011

SWEET NOVEMBER

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...
And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...
Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?
Only time...
And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?
Only time...
Who can say when the roads meet,

That love might be,
In your heart.
And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart...
Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Who knows?

Only time...
Who knows?
Only time...



saw the movie for the first time. don't quite know what to say... it's beautiful. impractical. incredible. fantastic. a modern day fairy tale with its own dose of realism. that complete and utter selfless surrender... does it happen really? ever? i don't know. but after a long long time a movie, or anything infact, makes me believe that maybe it does.. heh. even as i type this, the ever practical part of my brain reminds me that it is but fiction. but for once, i would like to put logic aside.

when he finds out about her sickness...when he tries to fathom the reasons behind her decisions...i wonder how it affects him, what he thinks of her. does that one aspect make him wonder if she's a completely different person? the fact that she didn't tell him, and seeing her the way he does now, powerless, dependent, a complete opposite of what she had always been to him... how does it affect him? when they bring her back home, when she refuses to let him be around her, too scared to let him see her this way... frustration? helplessness? anger? something else? falling in love with the woman, completely changing his life and taking her way of life as his own... and then struggling with the knowledge that maybe, just maybe she doesn't think of me as anything more than her "November", and having to rethink all the choices he made for that one month...

and her? what about her? creating a life when life was running out on her... sustaining. living. loving. giving. selfish yet unconditionally so?
"he asked me to marry him"
"he was the first one i think?"
"no, but it was the first time i wanted to say yes.."
when he asks her to marry her, and she wants to say yes but says no, because she feels she isn't the person he loves. tries to avoid letting him see her break down. and when she can't avoid it anymore, kicks him out. minimal drama, minimal theatrics. dying every minute yet living every minute.

and then he comes back...bringing a whole new world with him. soppy soppy soppy. but still it makes me smile. and when he sings for her, it makes me want something similar... heh. soppy soppy soppy. again. heh.

are there people who are actually like this? living every minute like it is their last, doing what exactly what they wish to do, what they love, what they want, with who they want, on their own terms...
i would give anything to be able to be that way...

i was always reluctant to watch this movie. why? because i had seen a tiny bit towards the end once, where she had just come back from the hospital and he had unceremoniously been kicked out. i don't like movies with sad endings. juvenile maybe, but a fact nonetheless.

but this movie...well, it was pretty damn nice! :)




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